Ralph, of course, was absolutely fascinated by this, and probably for the same reason I was less so—it seemed like one of his formulaic TV series, Quantum Leap all over again, striving to bring to life what once passed on. There was really no way a squadron of post-singularitarians couldn’t march on the past and repossess the dead in force? The eternal fate of every person that ever lived depended on a pig from Longview?
And then it started to hit me, and I started to feel miserable—of course it would be Ralph, we knew it was Ralph already.
But it wouldn’t be me.
There was no way I could follow him so long, into so much unknown—and if I didn’t follow—how far apart we’d grow—my porker exploring everything and meeting everyone and me sitting at home.
Over a hundred fifty years, my future self had said, and he wasn’t even thinking of Ralph anymore.
“What—†Ralph said. “What’s wrong, sweet tiger?â€Â His voice was gentle in my ear.
“Nothing,†I said, on reflex.
Ralph grabbed me in his big arms and held me tightly against him. “Don’t,†he said, “don’t lie to me.†He pressed his snout to my nose and lifted my headfur from my eyes. “See this,†he said, “there is fluid leaking from your organs of sight. Before I call in the mechanic I need to know what is causing the breakdown. Maybe I can fix it myself.â€
I shut my eyes. “Ralph…â€
His hold on me did not abate. “It’s my duty to take care of you,†he said. “All my heart.â€
“But I’m going to lose you, Ralph… how can I do anything but lose you, with all this?â€
His hold on me did not abate. “You will always be with me.â€
“Through this? But I…â€
“You will always be with me. I’d rather carry you across hot coals than leave you behind. We belong to each other.â€
When I was typing “how can I do anything but lose you”, MS Word put a little blue underline under “lose”, suggesting “love” instead.